Logic.

I said before that I had put a lock and chain and shield around my heart. But isn’t that impossible, since I still don’t have my heart to begin with? It’s impossible, seeing as how someone else is still wholly holding my heart.

You can’t lock something that you have no control over. And I think that’s why I keep allowing people to come into my life like this, because all I’m trying to do is let them make me feel alright again. There wasn’t a lock all along. There’s barely even a door.

But it’s just not possible, until I get that heart back, I just have to get through to myself. Only then can I move on and let someone else take hold of it.

Which I want so badly, but until I get the strength to tell myself, “It’s just not worth it,” I’ll most likely keep holding on.

New boy should have a battle with old boy. Winner gets to hold my heart.

Which actually may not even be a good thing anyway.
Ha.
I’m such a train wreck.

A train wreck just trying to pick up the pieces of the track and keep on going.
And given the situation, I think I’m doing a damn good job.